I am tired of city life. I am tired of computer, network, marked smile, dull conversation, same building. I am now in the edge of disappointing. And then, I decided to have a short trip, I decided to go alone on my electric utility vehicle.
Actually, I am not an old woman, nor a successful one. I am so common that I even confused about the meaning of my existence. Why I am here? Why I am in this place at this time? Do I really belong here? If yes, why I am now so desperate? And if not, where is the place that I belong to?
I drove my utility vehicle this time to a nearby countryside, it is said that this place is one of the few place, if any, where people feel happy.
When I got to the entrance, I parked my car and entered the village. To my surprise, people there are not what I had expected. Just on the road, I found two people (actually it seems that they are a couple) are quarrelling loudly. And what’s more, people who around them do not even try to help.
When hear the shape blame of the woman, I am even more uncomfortable. She is not reasonable, but his man is also not good. I really believe that a gentleman shall never quarrel with his girl. This is a place where I believe I could get some happiness here. I find that I am really ridiculous.
I asked for a leave this morning from my boss and told him that I am exhausted and not happy. I come here to find happy yet I just find that my idea is really stupid. I know that I am confused because I think there are places where there is only happiness. And I realized that even daydreaming could not be that wonderful.
I walked out of the village, really a little bit tired. And I find my utility vehicle is there, what’s more, a little girl is sitting on the ground beside it. At least, I have my car there waiting for me. Maybe I should make some change and try to find and understand happy in a now way.
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